2012

Well 2011 was really rough for all of us. For you, because you're 12 now and that is such a rough age. Also your dad moved in this year which I am sure was rough on you. Also, Grandpa Griffin died this year.

Thank you so much for your strength and patience as we dealt with problem upon problem this year. Your faith in me, Doug, and your father has been amazing.

Now it is a new year, and you will turn 13 this year.

Wow.

My baby girl, all grown up, turning into a teen. A teen! Can you believe it?

I am so excited for who you are and what you have become. At fest this year you were such an advocate, but not just an advocate, an articulate passionate well informed advocate. You believed in something and defended it aptly and appropriately without hate and negative speech, but with clear, concise arguments.

I was in awe watching you speak and watching you become your own person with your own viewpoints and opinions. The passion that you had when you were defending your rights and the festival that has become so important to you was inspiring. I am so proud of you and watching you come into your wonderful person is amazing to watch.

You've made some poor decisions, and for the life of me I cannot get you to see how important your self worth is to you. When you dress trashy or wear makeup too heavy people think you are cheap and easy, not that you are precious and to be cherished. I know you're growing up and trying out your own things, but it is difficult to watch you make decisions that affect your future and could cost you your life. Chatting with people you don't know, agreeing to strip on the internet, this stuff is risky stuff and stuff you're not ready to deal with the consequences with.

Another thing you struggle with is following the rules whether you agree with them or not. Audrial, this world is full of rules. From laws enforceable by police and court systems to expectations we place on ourselves and others. Navigating within those guidelines is important. Sure, there are times when violating the rules makes sense. However, violating a rule just because you don't agree with it is not acceptable. Hopefully you embrace this soon, because if you don't, you will experience so many more struggles and disappointments than you need to.

There is a time to be stubborn and a time to go along with things simply because it is easier. The important lesson is learning how to tell the difference.

Regardless you are an amazing daughter. I feel lucky every day to have you in my life. My hopes this year is that you continue to come into your own and continue to find your voice. You are beautiful and I am so proud of you.